ahh, well, who am i kidding?

outside of an academic setting, all i write falls flat, misses the mark, has no creative life. (do i just do better when people are telling me what to do? hmm.)

but the only words that seem strong enough to make it out through my maze of emotion are simply and nothing but the blunt and raw and harsh, sans any creative farce camouflaging reality into a softer and more pleasant picture to behold.

and so write i do, but it’s not much worth airing yet.

but despite that,

i do have a Hope that even these dark words are a part of a magnificent story.